DESPAIR

Flowing through the sights of despair;
Thought should i concentrate a little,
On clouds of hope that gather around
To make a little shade on me

Flowers around instill confidence in me
Dont they wither without discomfiture within
Why cant i follow the same?
Didnt i come to play the same game????

But Ego within is creating a storm,
Is eager to come out to blow all forms,
What should i do to let it hold,
Nay,it is not in my control anymore.

O Allah,Tell me what should i do now,
I fear i might blow myself,
in this self consuming Fire of self glory
Nay,This was not for what you sent me,
But deviated from the path i am from what i see

Help me out from this darkness of self,
Take me under guidance of your SELF
Your Mercy has always been with me,
However wretched my self has been.

O Allah,Extinguish the fire of Self glory within
Ignite the fire of humility to win